A Storm is Coming; Live it Once

I live on the west coast of Florida. Weather changes quickly, often offering little warning. We are used to it here. Storms come and go. In the case of hurricanes, we get early warnings which give us time to prepare as best we can. Our weatherman always emphasizes his rule #7: “Don’t freak out.” The storm will pass. It always does.

“EVERY STORM RUNS OUT OF RAIN”
Maya Angelou

Now, we are facing COVID-19, a novel virus to which humans have no immunity. I feel a low level of anxiety all around me. I think of this anxiety as a psychological storm that is gathering.

Psychological storms are much like storm clouds. Emotions arise suddenly and, too often, we are blindsided. We forget the blue sky of our true essence. We worry that the storm will never end. We live the fear of our imagined future. We live it again and again as if it were happening right now.

I have a puppy friend named Rosie who is terrified of thunderstorms. Rosie fears that the storm will harm her. Maybe it will, maybe it won't but she is living as if she’s being harmed right now even as she is safely nestled on her couch with her human hugging her. She’s living the imagined harm moment by moment, experiencing it repeatedly. All the while, she is safe and unharmed.

We are much the same, aren’t we? We fear an imagined future and we live it repeatedly as if it were true right now. We imagine worse case scenarios. We imagine inconvenience, stress, exhaustion, financial collapse, chaos, and death. We imagine it all and we experience it as if it’s happening right now.

COVID-19 is in our midst, yes. We know that people will be ill and lives will be lost. We already see our economy taking a huge hit. People’s hours are being cut at work or jobs lost altogether. We don’t know how this is going to play out. Already in my imagination, I can catch myself projecting all manner of crises into the future.

My question to you is this, what would life be like these next few months if you lived this COVID-19 storm only once? Just once. If you are imagining financial ruin, what would it be like for you to drop your story about it and live whatever does come to pass? What would it be like for you if you stopped imagining how this virus is going to play out and simply live what actually does happen?

Do you see what I mean? I have no idea how this virus is going to play out. It may not be as bad is we fear or it may be a devastating disaster but let’s live it only once, in the moment. Let’s trust that we humans can come together, unite, and find our way through this. After all, we’ve survived for millennia.

Here's what I’ve discovered: when I stop imagining that the virus is going to wreak complete and utter destruction, I’m able to face the situation with more clarity, resourcefulness, and energy than when I’ve worried myself to death about it.

Situations almost always turn out differently than you imagine and if they don’t, you only have to live it once instead of repeatedly in your imagination.

This understanding has been a game-changer for me and my clients in many ways, from simple situations to more difficult situations.

I remember when my dad got sick with cancer. I was worried about how it would be, if I could handle it, and how awful things could get, especially since we’d never been close. Yes, there were difficulties for sure, but it turns out that those two years were healing for us. Against all odds, years of anger and disappointment dissipated and a tender love filled the void. It could have been just the opposite but why live it more than once?

I used to believe that if I worried about the future, I might be more prepared for it. I find the opposite to be true. When I worry, I become stressed, unclear, and less resourceful and responsive. I become too confused and unclear to plan wisely. I’m less prepared and less capable.

When you are grounded in the present moment, you see much more clearly and you can take appropriate action. You’re able to access your intuition and deep wisdom. You are able to respond creatively and resourcefully. We humans are built for the reality of this present moment.

You see, the storm always passes. Let’s live this COVID-19 storm only once knowing that the clear blue sky of our wellbeing always remains. We will find our way.

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“Breathe, my love. Like any long labor, we are going to take this one breath at a time.” Valerie Kaur


MY WORK AS A COACH focuses on helping people move through anxiety. This is my wheel house.

As a result of the unfolding COVID-19 situation, I am offering one-off sessions for free or pay what you wish for those who are anxious about the current state of affairs.

This is a sincere offer. I want to help and I know that supporting you will help me stay calm and grounded. I need you, too!

So, please, contact me up. I’m available.

I learned a long time ago to ask for help. Please don’t hesitate to ask and please don’t let finances stand in your way.

I can help.

You are not alone. ❤️

Carla Royal

How to Overcome Over-Thinking

“EVERY STORM RUNS OUT OF RAIN”
Maya Angelou

What a great quote. It’s one of the best lines I’ve ever heard. There hasn’t been a single time that this has not been so.

Last fall, I went through a rough couple of months. I confess that it was simply and purely a matter of telling myself a story that wasn’t true about a particular set of circumstances. I bought into my own misguided narrative. Hook, line, and sinker.

Sometime later, the storm of my story and the accompanying emotions ran out of rain. Interestingly and importantly, my circumstances had not changed. Not at all. The only thing that changed was the narrative or the story that I told myself about the circumstances.

You see, I had unrealistic expectations. I had decided that things shouldn’t be the way they were. I was living in fear that things would never change. Of course, change is inevitable. I know this in my bones. But, I got locked into what I call exponential thinking.

Exponential thinking is when we pile on thinking upon thinking upon thinking. We do this innocently. Some people call this the monkey mind. One of my California clients calls it KF*CK Radio.

You could imagine a snow globe that contains a beautiful scene. You can see that scene perfectly until you start shaking it, then the scene becomes obscured. There is no longer any clarity. Even when you stop shaking the globe, it takes a while for the snow to settle. You’ve got to wait a bit.

You could think of exponential thinking as the shaking of the snow globe. It’s something we all do and most of us do it unconsciously.

If we can wake up to how we do this, we’ll be able to clear our “snow globe”, “monkey mind” more quickly and more easily. I even propose that when we wake up to our exponential thinking, truly seeing it for what it is, we won’t be as bothered by it because we won’t be so overly identified with it.

Here’s a quick and easy exercise you can play with. It doesn’t take much time but it can have a profound impact on you. You could think of it as a way to stop shaking the snow globe of your mind.

I’ll start by giving you an example of how to do the exercise. This is a typical situation that most of us find ourselves in from time to time: You are busy at your desk when your boss, colleague, client, or spouse enters or calls to deliver some information. The person is quite curt. What do you do?

Many of us start making up reasons why the person is being curt with us. Humans are meaning making machines. We want to know WHY.

On a good day, we might wonder if they are OK or if something bad happened. On a bad day, we may take it terribly seriously and personally. “What a jerk!” “Who do they think they are??” “Oh my god, I did something wrong but I don’t know what it is!” “Several people have been laid off lately to cut costs, maybe I’m next!” “How in the world am I going to explain getting fired to my spouse??” Sleepless nights and rehearsing imaginary conversations may ensue.

This example shows what I mean by exponential thinking. It’s when we get carried away with our imagination as we try to make sense of what is happening.

Rather than directly asking the person what is going on, we spin out inside our minds or we get others involved in colluding with us. Either way, we are going down the rabbit hole of exponential thinking which is just like shaking the snow globe and completely obscuring our clarity and felt sense of wellbeing.

When you feel yourself caught up in a runaway story in a situation like this, that’s your wake up call to put the snow globe down and let the confusion settle so that you can find your way clearly again.

One way to stop shaking the globe is by using this diagram. Inside the lines, place the FACT of your particular situation. Example: “Boss is curt”. Outside the lines place your STORY about the situation. Example: “Boss is a jerk.”

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Now you try it. Filling out your own diagram can help you wake up to your exponential thinking. Often times, waking up to yourself is all that’s needed to be able to release those stories. Other times, those stories really do sock in and you simply must wait for the storm to clear.

It can help knowing that every storm runs out of rain. Always. You can find your way.


If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore more deeply how to overcome overthinking, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. In person, Zoom, FaceTime, or Zoom. Contact Me

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Are You Hiding in Plain Sight?

I’ve had a life-long fear of being seen. I know I’m not the only one. Many people are hiding in plain sight with this fear. When I reflect, I can see that it comes down to a fear of not measuring up, being seen as imperfect or as a fraud, being inadequate, or worse yet, being seen as fundamentally flawed. While this has become less of an issue as I’ve worked through these things, it still rears its head. Can you relate?

We live in an overly individualistic society. In fact, individualism is highly applauded in many ways. The demands are extreme that we look and act just right, excel, are successful (in very particular ways), are culturally beautiful, that we are all things to all people, and that we go it alone. It’s too heavy!

The demands are impossible but we don’t dare let anyone see our struggles, we simply do our best to bear up under it all, hiding in plain sight, — until we can’t any longer. I think of Anthony Bourdain, Kate Spade, and many others. Social media has only proven to increase these demands and the craziness of it all.

Almost all of us feel the pressure to conform to some extent or another. But at what cost? What price do you pay when you hide your imperfections and pain day in and day out?

The price is paid in many forms: fatigue, anxiety, shame, difficulty speaking up, poor sleep, a compromised immune system, avoidance, loneliness despite how many people are around, compromised relationships, poor work performance, overworking to the point of exhaustion, over drinking, overly guarded, and much more.

So many people are hiding in plain sight, quietly dealing with the anxiety of it all.

What can we do about this?

When I’m working with a client dealing with these kinds of unrealistic demands, whether external or internal, I first point them in the direction of who they are at their essence, before the demands.

This desire we have to hide or not be seen is not a result of our true self, it’s a result of not being in touch with our true self. We want to protect our ego or our image of ourselves, but the true self doesn’t need protecting.

Each of us comes into this world with certain innate characteristics. You can see this in very young children. They are happy, curious, playful, creative, comfortable with themselves, responsive, open, resilient, and so on. They have an amazing capacity to feel all of their explosive emotions and then let those emotions move through them naturally and quickly. Of course, these characteristics can become quite hidden, even very early on, when trauma is involved but those qualities are still there.

These are the qualities that are innate to us as adults. Each of us has innate wisdom, resilience, intuition, insight, resourcefulness, love, and wellbeing but we may be quite out of touch with them.

The solution is to come home to yourself, before all of the beliefs, demands, and expectations that have been placed on you and that you now place on yourself.

You are not damaged, not at your core. Yes, your ego, reputation, or physical body may be damaged, but who you truly are can never be damaged. However, we get confused living in a culture that tells us otherwise. This is the first misunderstanding to clear up.

Secondly, it’s important to wake up to the beliefs, stories, and narratives that you are buying into — that we all buy into — that cloud your clarity about who you really are.

A story I bought into for many years that nearly destroyed me was that my heart is evil above all else. I believed I couldn’t trust myself and when I did inevitably fail, I used that as proof that the evil-heart story was true. I carried terrible shame for decades all because of this one story. Shedding that belief has freed me up in ways I never believed possible.

What are the stories, beliefs, and narratives that hinder you and keep you from knowing your true essence? It could be an expectation from a parent that you’ve internalized. It could be a cultural demand that tells you exactly what beauty and success must look like. Or a religious edict that you can’t seem to escape. It could be that you are buying into day-to-day stressful thoughts.

Who would you be without these stories?

You could think of it this way:

  1. Everyone has innate wellbeing, resourcefulness, wisdom, creativity, and insight. Sometimes you are more dialed into these qualities than other times.

  2. If you are too down or even too hyped up — hyper, angry, frustrated, agitated, fearful, etc. — these thoughts can become clustered and loud. Like a tornado in your head. The wisdom and insight are there but you can’t hear them. You may feel like hiding.

  3. Your default setting is wellbeing and when you are dialed into that, your thoughts don’t stop but you don’t engage them so much. You could imagine your thoughts on a conveyor belt - coming and going - slower and more peaceful. Now your innate wisdom, resourcefulness, and creativity have a chance to be heard and supports you in moving your life forward with more ease and flow. Now the fear of being seen subsides.

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When you quiet your insecure or anxious thinking and overactive imagination, even temporarily, you are able to access your inner wisdom, resourcefulness, and wellbeing. Now you are in touch with who you really are and who you really are has no need to hide or fear being seen.

When you find yourself wanting to hide and not be seen, this could be your wakeup call that you have lost sight of who you really are. It could be your wakeup call that you are buying into stressful stories, narratives, or beliefs that cloud your innate clarity.

When you realize you’ve lost sight of who you are and that you are caught up in stressful thoughts that make you want to hide, look for the stories, beliefs, and narratives behind those thoughts. That’s where you’ll find your suffering. When you recognize them for what they are, you can begin dropping them, allowing them to dissipate and you can return to the clarity of who you truly are. You are safe there. From that place, you can take action or not. You can be seen if that’s needed. You can live your life freely.


If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore a new perspective on being seen, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar for the next week for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. Contact Me

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Peace on Earth. Is it Even Possible?

I’ve recently discovered a new (to me) artist and I love his music. Fred Neil. He has a rich baritone voice, great lyrics, and mad guitar skills. He was a singer-song writer in the 60s and 70s. He influenced musicians like Joni Mitchell, Crosby, Stills, Karen Dalton, and more. He grew up in St. Petersburg, FL which is only 40 minutes from where I live now.

In addition to his music, he was most passionate about dolphins. He founded the Dolphin Research Project in 1970 which is an organization dedicated to stopping the capture, trafficking, and exploitation of dolphins worldwide. He gradually faded from the music scene as he became more and more involved with the dolphins (which makes me love him even more!).

He wrote a beautiful song entitled The Dolphins. This is my favorite verse:

Lord, I'm not the one to tell this old world how to get along
I only know that peace will come when all our hate is gone
I've been a-searchin' for the dolphins in the sea

I’ve thought a lot about these lyrics. Most of us have this idea that we know what’s best for this old world. But do we? Can we be certain? Are we certain enough to disenfranchise whole groups of people because they don’t agree with us? I see the divide in this country, and beyond, deepening every day (or so it seems to me). Am I enabling or even facilitating that divide?

When I look closely, I can see that the divide resides within me. I am divided.

I am divided.

I can feel the me that I find acceptable and I can find the me that is not acceptable. Of course, neither is actually Me, the true me. The me I’m talking about here is the ego me, the constructed me. I want to flaunt the acceptable me and I want to obliterate the unacceptable me.

I awoke this morning with negative thoughts about myself.

“What’s wrong with you that you….??” “Why can’t you…??” “You’ll never….!”

I woke up bullying myself!

I caught myself pretty quickly and brought it to a halt but I don’t always stop immediately. I would NEVER let someone speak to me the way I sometimes speak to myself. Ever! Yet, I can do it to myself for days on end when I don’t wake up to myself.

What does this have to do with this old world? I believe it has everything to do with it. If I’m divided within myself, how can I expect to not divide out there? Assuming there even is an out there. Fred says, “I’m not the one to tell this old world how to get along. I only know that peace will come when all our hate is gone.

Peace will come when all hate is gone. Peace will come when I’m no longer divided within. Peace will come when I fully accept Carla in all of her messy humanness. Only then can I fully accept you and those even more different from me than you are. Only then can I accept you even when you don’t accept me.

If we want peace on earth, we must first find peace within ourselves. I believe this. I really do believe this. It’s why I love the work that I do. I see my ultimate role as helping folks come home to themselves, come to acceptance of themselves. It’s what I’ve worked on personally for decades (I still do).

I spent decades depressed for two reasons that I can see at this point. One, I carried way too much shame and lack of acceptance for myself, largely due to family, religious, and cultural expectations. Two, I believed that peace was only available in the “afterlife”. I had no acceptance of THIS life. I didn’t have both feet planted firmly here, now. I was always waiting for something better and I was always waiting to be better. That is, I did not accept me now in this life here. No wonder I was depressed.

Only after having a close encounter with death (what I call my break-down break-through) over 20 years ago, did I wake up to my problem:

I did not accept myself and
I did not accept this life.

I suppose that’s as good a definition of hate as there is. Once I saw this, everything changed. Everything. On the other side of my close encounter with death, I awoke to the perfection of the here and now.

Initially, it was so bright and clear. It was so easy to be awake with all the clarity in the world. But over the weeks, months, and years, the cultural pull to dwell in the past and worry about the future (or longing for an imagined future) began to impinge upon me. I could feel the pull away from NOW. This culture is an expert NOW-avoider.

The work I do both personally and professionally is largely about waking up to ourselves. Catching ourselves with one foot in the past and one in the future, which keeps us dangerously off balance in the moment. It’s no wonder folks are terribly stressed and depressed. We’ve forgotten that we are built for the reality of this present moment — like the gazelles.

The gazelles on the African Savannah know this. They graze, completely relaxed and alert. Not hyper-alert but relaxed and alert, you might even say Mindful. The lion gives chase. Cortisol, adrenalin, and stress flood the Gazelle’s system. They run and leap across the Savannah. The lion breaks away, or even takes a gazelle, and the chase is over. Within 5 minutes — 5 minutes — the gazelles are grazing again, relaxed and alert.

They do not live in fear. They live in the moment. They know the lion can come at any time. They don’t worry about it. They don’t dwell on it. They don’t imagine it happening again. No, in the moment, they allow their system to work as it’s designed to work. Relaxed, alert, adrenaline rush when needed.

They accept life on its own terms. They accept themselves as they are. They are at peace, even though the lion dwells among them. Such beautiful acceptance.

Beautiful acceptance. That’s what I aim for. That’s what I guide my clients to. Because “I only know that peace will come when all our hate is gone.”

I can’t think of anything more radical than coming to peace with ourselves, true peace and acceptance. Only then can we hope to heal the divide.

Peace on earth is an inside job.

Only when we discover peace within (where it has always and only been) can we go out into the world and hope to help. Or so it seems to me.


If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore a new perspective on peace, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar this week for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. Contact Me

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It's the New Year but I'm Discouraged!

It may be that you awoke discouraged on the first day of this new year. After all, you had high hopes for 2019 and things didn’t go as you planned. You may have had devastating and unexpected losses. You may have had unexplained and persistent illness. You may have fought depression or anxiety. Maybe you didn’t live up to your expectations of yourself and you feel like a failure.  

People around you are excited about 2020 but you may not be feeling it. I want you to know that I understand. I had a less than stellar 2019. I had hopes and dreams that I didn’t realize. It occurs to me that a bit of grieving may be in order before diving into 2020 with gusto.

I hadn’t considered that grieving could be the balm that heals enough to open the way for a new year. We tend to dive in head first without taking stock, without acknowledging our disappointments, without grieving our losses. Perhaps doing so would make for a better start to the new year.

It may be that you want to hide your disappointment and discouragement. I admit that that’s my tendency. After all, I have an image to protect! Or so I sometimes believe. I suppose we come by this desire to hide our vulnerabilities innocently in this world of pristine social media images. The expectation to be perfect is compelling and outrageous. It hurts us.

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I found this post on Facebook and it resonates with me. We are so quick to leap into the new year, hoping for a new me, looking at all that needs fixing. In addition to grieving our losses and disappointments, perhaps it would behoove us to also celebrate our tenacity and resilience. After all, if you are reading this, you have a 100% successful survival rate. That’s nothing to sneeze at.

So, I encourage you (and me) to take time to acknowledge your disappointments, to grieve, and then to celebrate the “old you”. You are brilliant. You are star stuff. You are perfect just as you are.

From that place, you are ready to envision and plan for this new year. How do you want to show up in 2020? Who would you be without your unrealistic expectations for yourself? Who would you be without access to a single thought about what others think of you or expect of you? Who would you be with more compassion and acceptance of your humanness?

Yes, at your essence you are perfect and you are also gloriously imperfect. These two ideas are not mutually exclusive. What a relief it would be to acknowledge, accept, and embrace this truth.

And if you want to play a bigger game in 2020, by all means, have at it. But playing a bigger game says nothing about who you truly are at your essence — that tenacious, resilient, wise, bright you. Look there. Look to your essence rather than to the constructed, made-up, imperfect you that is trying to fit into this demanding culture. You will find your ground there and from that place you can decide how you want to show up in 2020.

May you find peace. May you find comfort. May you live with more ease and flow. I sincerely wish you and yours a happy new year.


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How to Make the Most of 2020

2019 is almost over. 2020 is soon to dawn. A new year, a new decade. It is a significant time. A significant transition.

There is nothing magical about the passing of time. Nothing magical about a new year and a new decade. Really, it’s just another day. Yet, there is an opportunity here for deep reflection.

It’s easy to get caught up in the day to day demands. It’s easy to continue in our same old patterns, or as Hobbs says, “staying the course” … whether or not it’s working for us.

The brain’s primary job is to keep us safe. It wants what is familiar. It wants to conserve energy. This may explain, in part, why we struggle to keep the resolutions many of us declare at the beginning of every new year.  

Deep reflection can engage the area of the brain that can help us override an overly cautious attachment to safety and familiarity. Just simply stating that can feel a tad threatening. Yet, developing a capacity for change and flexibility could be one of our greatest assets, especially in these chaotic times.

Deep reflection can get underneath the superficial “wants” such as losing 20 pounds so I’ll look more presentable to a demanding culture. That “want” will not sustain us. But if we can look deeper, we may find a compelling reason to lose those pounds, or we may come to a deep acceptance of our weight exactly as it is.

When we can uncover the deeper meaning behind the changes we want to make, we’ll have a better chance of overriding a very powerful brain that wants safety and familiarity at all cost.

This is the point of visioning our future, creating intentions, and setting up enough structure and accountability to support ourselves.

I intend to join the gym this year. This intention comes from a place of deep reflection. I want to get stronger and more flexible. I want to be healthier as I enter my 60th year. Yet, I could feel the resistance immediately. My powerful brain wants things to stay the same.

I reflected, I found the deeper meaning, but if I don’t set up some flexible structure and accountability, I won’t follow through. The moment a friend and I decided to meet at the gym on specific days, I felt immediate relief. I don’t have to do this alone. After all, humans are social creatures.

When is the last time you invested in YOU in a significant way? How are you going to support yourself in this new decade? And why does it matter? How will you satisfy your brain’s need for safety and familiarity AND move your life forward in the way that you most desire?

Your next decade deserves some deep reflection, intention, preparation, and a flexible plan. Without it, you’ll likely repeat the same old, same old. And that’s perfectly OK if it’s working for you.

As for me, I’m off to the gym. I wish you and yours a brilliant new year and new decade. Be well!


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How to Handle Holiday Stress

Emotions of all sorts get stirred up during the holidays. Joy, anticipation, gratitude, sorrow, longing, and irritability are just a few. Some folks draw energy from the season. Others are utterly exhausted and depressed.

I remember dreading the holidays. They were painful for me. Often, I’d suffer for a full month. I was living in memories of past holidays that didn’t go well and worried about what might go wrong in the upcoming holiday. On top of that, I often felt shame about all that I didn’t accomplish during the past year, then worry about the coming year and stress about how things might go awry. All of this was a recipe for a miserable holiday time.

Lao Tzu says, “If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”

It’s easy to get caught up in thoughts of past and future. We all do it. Innocently. The trick is to wake up to ourselves, with compassion.

I have a client who is a confident, highly successful corporate consultant and trainer. She confessed to me that she was feeling terribly anxious about visiting her mother for the holidays. She had gained some weight since she last saw her mom. She anticipated that her mom would open the door to her and immediately start in on her about her weight. After all, she’d done it numerous times in the past.

I asked my client how she reacted when she believed her mother would receive her in this way. She said that she became defended, on guard, ashamed, angry, and withholding. She would shut down.

I asked if she thought her mother would feel all of that defensiveness. She knew that her mom would feel it and would most likely react negatively to it. I then asked her how it would be to visit her mother without the belief that she would give her grief about her weight.

She said she would be more open. She’d feel lighter. She would be present and not preoccupied with her mother’s reaction to her weight. I saw her breathe a sigh of relief as she understood that how she showed up had nothing to do with her mother’s behavior.

We both recognized that no matter how she entered, her mom very well may be critical of her weight. But rather than living that moment again and again before the visit, she recognized that she only had to live it once at the time it happens, if it happens.

So, she opened herself. She dropped her defensiveness. She dropped the story about how her mom was going to react. She dropped her judgment about her weight gain. She arrived at her mother’s house for Thanksgiving with presence and love. Her mom opened the door and beamed. She embraced her daughter and told her how good she looked and how happy she was to see her.

My client was able to bring herself into the present moment and find peace. She was able to find her way forward from that place of presence. And while it may have been difficult if her mom had been critical instead of loving, which was a very real possibility, she would have had more access to her own resourcefulness and emotional reserves. She would’ve been more able to respond from a place of groundedness, love, and wisdom. It wouldn’t have shaken her to her core.

Listen, the holidays can be tough. You could be gentle with yourself. You could give yourself a break and have compassion for yourself. You could have compassion for those around you who may be struggling, too. It can be a tricky time.

As much as possible, keep bringing yourself back to this moment. Recognize when you are living in a memory of a difficult past. Recognize when you are stressing about something that is not yet happening and may not happen.

When you can catch yourself living in the past or the future, you are able to bring yourself back to this moment where you have access to your essential nature: love, wisdom, peace, wellbeing, resilience, and more. All this will support you no matter what you face.

My family and I send you warmest season’s greetings. May you be happy. May you be safe. May you be you be healthy. May you live life with ease.


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Resolutions and the New Year: What Works and What Doesn’t

I tend to cringe a little when I hear the word resolution. The idea of resolutions and habits can remind me of failure and unreasonable expectations. The idea of discipline can remind me of my rigid dad and my fundamentalist background. The idea of structure and systems sounds too confining. These are all stories I’ve made up and these stories do not serve.

But here we are again, that time of year when we begin thinking of resolutions. “Oh my god, I need to lose 15 pounds. I need to increase my business. I need to exercise more. I need to be better at socializing. I need to put stronger habits in place.” The list goes on.

I can feel myself collapse a little under the weight of it all. I don’t feel encouraged and excited. I can feel ashamed and judged. We believe success or failure with resolutions tells us something about ourselves, such as whether or not we are good enough. No wonder we find it difficult to live up to them.

It doesn’t have to be this way. There is a perspective that can be expanding rather than limiting and these questions can be useful as you reflect on the coming year.

  • Who would you be if you stopped buying into the stories or narratives about what you’re supposed to do or be?

  • How would you approach this new year if you understood that accomplishments or failures tell you absolutely nothing about who you are? Read that one again.

  • How would things look different if you knew that you are already whole and that life is a game to play not to conquer or endure?

Take your time with these questions. Reflecting on them can be life changing.

Once you’ve reflected on these questions for a bit, you are ready to look back at the past year and plan for the next year, knowing that accomplishments and failures tell you nothing about who you are (yes, I slipped that in again!).

Are there changes you want to make in the coming year? If so, you could look at the situation objectively, without shame and judgment, without unrealistic expectations, without the painful narrative, and, conversely, without so much hype that you burn out by February.  

Looking back, even briefly, can bring much-needed clarity.

  • What went well? Take time to celebrate!

  • What understanding, strategies, systems, practices worked?

  • What didn’t work? No judgment allowed. Stick with the facts.

Next, envision the year ahead.

  • What do you want to create in your life or business?

  • What would it look like a year from now if you do create it? Be specific.

  • What do you need to put in place to be able to create what you envision?

  • What are you no longer willing to tolerate that gets in your way of creating what you desire

  • What are the specific next steps needed (doable and even tiny)?

You can hold all this lightly. There is no need to be rigid and demanding but reflection can lead to more clarity. Flexible structure can lead to more expansiveness and freedom. And remembering that the game of life is to be played, not conquered or endured, can lead to more flow and enjoyment.

As you enter into this holiday season, take some time to reflect. You are enough. There is nothing that needs to change to make you better or more acceptable. You are already whole.

And if you want to up your skill in the game of life or create something new, then, by all means, have it. Reflect on where you are now. Envision what you want. Determine your next steps. Put enough structure in place to support you. Watch yourself soar.


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Perfectionism, Self-Doubt, and the Fear of Failure

My partner and I have a little 15’ skiff we call the Freida (named after my mama). She’s old but she runs like a champ and we love her. I’m mostly the captain of the Freida and my partner is the pro at launching and trailering her at the Dunedin Marina. It’s not easy backing a trailer. It requires overriding what the brain wants to do.

I decided that I need to learn to back the trailer. We went to a church parking lot where there is plenty of room to experiment. I’m highly coordinated so I assumed it was going to be fairly easy. I was wrong. It was crazy hard. I was surprised!

Not only that, I got irritated. Really irritated. With myself. I felt stupid and uncoordinated. Neither of which are true. Yet, in that moment, I bought into those feelings as if they were true. The result? I rushed, failed, and wanted to quit. I had barely given it a try!

Why are we so quick to judge ourselves? Why do we give ourselves such a hard time? What is this need to be perfect? I suppose we come to this innocently, steeped in a culture of immediate gratification, expectations, and the rigid separation between winners and losers.

My partner told me to breathe and slow down. After a few more frustrating moments, I did. I reset my expectations. There is nothing wrong me. It’s simply a matter of practice. So, I practiced again and again until I began to get the hang of it.

It may be easy to wake up to ourselves with something as insignificant as backing a trailer, but what about when it comes to mastering a new skill in your business, relationship, or some other significant change that is important to you? What can you do about perfectionism, fear of failure, or negative self-talk? How do you develop the grit to see it through?

My partner held the key.

Breathe. Slow down. Keep at it.

When we buy into perfectionism, self-doubt, and fear of failure, we cloud our clarity of action. You could imagine holding a snow globe and shaking it. The snow obscures the clarity of the scene within the globe. When we become agitated, it’s as if we keep shaking the snow globe and wonder why we can’t see the scene. This, of course, leads to more agitation.

When we take that breath and slow down, we give our clouded thinking and stressful emotions time to settle. Some may call this mindfulness.  

Mindfulness, as described by scientists, is the experience of paying close attention to the present in an open and accepting way. Daniel Siegal, a leading researcher and author in this area, says, “It’s our ability to pause before we react. It gives us the space of mind in which we can consider various options and then choose the most appropriate ones.”

Mindfulness is about noticing inner signals. When you are lost in thought or emotions, you don’t see as much or sense as much. But, when you focus your mind on the present moment, all your senses come alive.

Frustration (or any emotion) naturally occurs. You could think of your feelings as a bus that pulls up to the stop. You can hop on that bus or you can stay put and let the bus move on. You have no control over the bus coming and going but you don’t have to hop on it and even if you do, you can hop off at the next stop. Sometimes all it takes is one mindful breath.

I have a client who gets extremely nervous before entering an important business meeting. Through our work together, she has learned the simple practice of sitting at her desk and bringing her attention to her breath for 60-90 seconds. When she’s done, she exits the office and walks into her meeting grounded and ready for whatever unfolds.

This tiny mindfulness practice has changed her experience by bringing clarity which enables her to tackle whatever her day brings. She was shocked that such a simple practice could be so helpful.

We think it’s the big things that have to change. We believe that we have to lose the 20 pounds or learn to be a professional speaker or get the big raise that proves our worth before things will change but the truth is that it’s the little practices that make all the difference.

Take a breath. Slow down. Keep at it. 

Clarity is your superpower. It can only be found in the present moment. You see, as my client worried about how her colleagues would view her, she was projecting herself into the future imagining their reactions and judgments. No longer in the present moment, her anxiety rose and she went into the meetings defended and not fully present. She was only able to show up authentically and powerfully when she brought herself back to the present moment.

When we get caught up in an imagined future or in replaying a painful past, we can become confused, stressed, frustrated, or fearful. We lose our balance. Mindfulness is the remedy. Take a breath. Slow down. Return your focus to the present moment. That’s the only place you will find your clarity and it is always there, ready to offer up the answers you need.


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How to Increase Your Confidence

What are the things you’d do, attempt, try, or create if you had unlimited confidence?

I read a book recently called The Confidence Code: The Science and Art of Self-Assurance by Katty Kay & Clarie Shipman. I loved this book because it normalized my experience. I am not alone.

Research shows that women struggle more than men when it comes to confidence. One study by Brenda Major, a social psychologist, found that “men consistently overestimated their ability and subsequent performance (on a variety of tasks or tests), and that women routinely underestimated both. The actual performance did not differ in quality.”

Overestimating your abilities can actually work for you because you tend to put yourself out there more often. Underestimating them often works against you, keeping you in your head and insecure.

Kay & Shipman found that “success correlates more closely with confidence than it does with competence.”

I believe it. I’ve lived it. I have the education, training, skills, and experience I need, yet, self-doubt continues to nip at my heels from time to time.

Self-doubt may be the single biggest factor that has held me back in my life and I have seen it repeatedly in the lives of my clients. It’s insidious. Is there anything we can do about it?

We’ve come to believe that confidence is a feeling. That is not accurate. Confidence is much more about taking action despite how we feel.

In the final chapter of their book, Kay & Shipman give us this simple but effective prescription for confidence:

“Think Less. Take Action. Be Authentic.”

I find it interesting and, oh, so true, that the very first part of their prescription is to think less. Over-thinking, rumination, and running narratives ramp up feelings of self-doubt, insecurity, and fear.

Usain Bolt, an Olympic champion sprinter, routinely walked the sidelines before his races. Unlike the other runners who were doing rituals, stretches, and other preparations, Usain would chat with and greet spectators, with a big smile on his face. Reporters asked why he wasn’t preparing for the race as the other athletes were. He explained that he ran better with less on his mind. He did not want to focus too much on the race.

Confidence is about preparing well, clearing your mind, and taking action.

Usain prepared, cleared his mind by talking to spectators, and then he ran the race. He didn’t need to conjure up any feelings of confidence. Neither do we.

A few years ago, I went bungee jumping (yes, that’s me!). I won’t go into the hilarity (and cussing) that ensued but I was terrified. No feeling of confidence came. Ultimately, I had a choice: Jump or don’t jump. After protesting much too long, I dove. The feeling of confidence never came but the thrill certainly did. If I had taken my feelings of anxiety and self-doubt too seriously, if I had believed them, (and I almost did), I never would have jumped. I’m so glad I did!

Feelings of doubt and uncertainty tell you absolutely nothing about your situation or about you or your capabilities. They tell you only that you are thinking thoughts of doubt and uncertainty.

I was perfectly capable of diving off that 160-foot bridge over a glacier-fed river but my brain, who’s main job is to keep me safe, attempted to convince me that I would die. The only way to override the message of death was to dive.

Preparation + Clarity + Action = Confidence (or in some cases, the clarity and courage not to act). I had a moment of clarity and I dove.

Clarity is our natural state. The feeling of confidence comes and goes. When we are preoccupied with confidence, we stir up insecurity. When we aren’t so preoccupied with finding that feeling of confidence, we have more clarity and we can act, whether or not we feel confident. This is empowering!

We don’t have to wait for a feeling of confidence in order to act. We could dive and the sooner we do, the easier it will be (as my hip, young, bungee-jumping-coach suggested).

What’s the good news? A feeling of confidence is optional! That lifts the weight, opening you to unlimited confidence, true confidence. You don’t need the feeling you thought you needed in order to move forward. You don’t have to wait for that feeling to arrive. You can prepare and act. As you take your feelings less seriously and act despite them, it’s often the case that your feelings of confidence will increase. That’s just the cherry on top. Nothing more.


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You Are Not Alone

I’ve been thinking about depression a great deal lately. I used to suffer from it routinely. I really haven’t in years, until now. I thought it was something I had overcome forever. I was wrong.

It started a couple of months ago. I began working on a project with great enthusiasm. It turned out to be much harder than I expected. I wrongly determined that everything was at stake. When I ran into difficulty, I became discouraged and began to doubt. There is nothing unusual about such feelings arising and they certainly are not a problem. Discouragement and doubt are common human emotions in this roller-coaster life.

The discouragement became a problem only when I began taking it so seriously by believing my stories about the situation. It became a problem when I started to analyze and judge my feelings and make up meaning about the difficulty.

“I’m a failure. This should come easily, but since it doesn’t, something must be wrong with me. Others succeed in this kind of thing without so much struggle, I must not be cut out for it. The old message that I am slow must be true. I’m ashamed. I’m all alone. No one can understand.”  

It became a bigger problem when I decided that I shouldn’t have these feelings, especially since I’m a coach and teach about these things, and that I needed to hide them. I was no longer having my emotions, I became my emotions. I was ashamed. As I labeled the feelings a problem, my brain could only see a problem and “problem” became reinforced.

Neuroscience tells us that our brains can focus either on the problem or the solution. It cannot do both at the same time much like you can’t multiply and add a number at the same time.

Let’s imagine that I’m an attorney and I have a boss who intimidates me. I have the choice, whether or not I’m aware of it, to focus on the solution or the problem.

Imagine that I focus on the problem: Who do I become?

I find myself shrinking when my boss is around. I avoid my boss. I resort to unrealistic perfectionism in my attempts to please my boss. I feel increasing anxiety whenever my boss is around or even when I think of my boss. I present an inauthentic face to my boss that I can’t possibly sustain. I begin to feel more and more intimidated, maybe even resentful, and probably pretty down, which reinforces my feelings, blocking me from any solutions that may be available to me. My focus is narrowly upon my problem.

Now, let’s imagine that I focus on the solution: Who would I be?

I would be aware of the stories I am creating about my boss and about myself. I would see where my stories are made up rather than based in reality. I would focus on my strengths and lead with those. I would not be so afraid of my weaknesses, knowing that they tell me nothing about who I am truly. I would take initiative and show up as I understand that mistakes and failures are opportunities, and even necessary, for growth and mastery. I would practice self-compassion and courage despite how I feel. I would take my boss’s actions or non-actions towards me much less personally. Now, my focus has widened and I’m able to see more options and once again connect with resourcefulness, resilience, and wisdom.

But I didn’t focus on the solution. I focused on the problem and the problem grew. Depression set in. As I continued down the rabbit hole of analyzing, judging, and becoming my feelings, my sleep began to suffer, my body began to suffer, and, likely, my dopamine and serotonin neurotransmitters began to deplete. I took less and less action which reinforced the discouragement and inertia. I knew what I needed to do but couldn’t seem to do it.

That’s when I reached out for some support. I knew that the isolation and becoming my feelings rather than having my feelings were keeping the depression alive. I knew, despite feeling otherwise, that I wasn’t alone so I risked reaching out.

I let my partner know. I let me best friend know. I let my sister know. I let my coach know. Each, gladly, offered support in their own way. Despite how I felt, I began doing little things that could help me break the spell. Recognizing how my stories keep the depression alive and reaching out for support are helping me come back into balance once again.

When we are sick, we go to bed and sleep it off. Rarely do we judge and analyze ourselves. Rarely do we feel shame. We rest. Our bodies start to heal naturally.

Our psychological system works the same way. Feelings arise such as discouragement, fear, doubt, and insecurity. If we greet those feelings with understanding and compassion, they are free to move through us. We don’t have to take our emotions so damn seriously, as compelling as they are. We could watch them rise, peak, and dissipate. No matter how intense they are, they will move through in time. Our psychological system starts to heal naturally just as our physical system does.

We all have thoughts of discouragement and doubt. It’s normal and expected. We can’t stop them and we don’t need to. When we let those thoughts move through us, not subscribing to them, they dissipate more quickly. They don’t become a problem. And even if they do, we can unsubscribe from them at any time. We can wake up in any given moment. It may take our physical bodies a while to catch up, but they will. Our bodies and our minds want to return to balance and will with a little support and awareness.

There is no shame in feelings of discouragement, doubt, and depression. We’ve all been there to some extent or another. It is a normal human experience. It’s OK to have self-compassion. It’s OK to reach out for support. You are not alone.


If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore a new perspective on discouragement, doubt, or depression, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar this next week for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. Contact Me

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