How to Overcome Over-Thinking

“EVERY STORM RUNS OUT OF RAIN”
Maya Angelou

What a great quote. It’s one of the best lines I’ve ever heard. There hasn’t been a single time that this has not been so.

Last fall, I went through a rough couple of months. I confess that it was simply and purely a matter of telling myself a story that wasn’t true about a particular set of circumstances. I bought into my own misguided narrative. Hook, line, and sinker.

Sometime later, the storm of my story and the accompanying emotions ran out of rain. Interestingly and importantly, my circumstances had not changed. Not at all. The only thing that changed was the narrative or the story that I told myself about the circumstances.

You see, I had unrealistic expectations. I had decided that things shouldn’t be the way they were. I was living in fear that things would never change. Of course, change is inevitable. I know this in my bones. But, I got locked into what I call exponential thinking.

Exponential thinking is when we pile on thinking upon thinking upon thinking. We do this innocently. Some people call this the monkey mind. One of my California clients calls it KF*CK Radio.

You could imagine a snow globe that contains a beautiful scene. You can see that scene perfectly until you start shaking it, then the scene becomes obscured. There is no longer any clarity. Even when you stop shaking the globe, it takes a while for the snow to settle. You’ve got to wait a bit.

You could think of exponential thinking as the shaking of the snow globe. It’s something we all do and most of us do it unconsciously.

If we can wake up to how we do this, we’ll be able to clear our “snow globe”, “monkey mind” more quickly and more easily. I even propose that when we wake up to our exponential thinking, truly seeing it for what it is, we won’t be as bothered by it because we won’t be so overly identified with it.

Here’s a quick and easy exercise you can play with. It doesn’t take much time but it can have a profound impact on you. You could think of it as a way to stop shaking the snow globe of your mind.

I’ll start by giving you an example of how to do the exercise. This is a typical situation that most of us find ourselves in from time to time: You are busy at your desk when your boss, colleague, client, or spouse enters or calls to deliver some information. The person is quite curt. What do you do?

Many of us start making up reasons why the person is being curt with us. Humans are meaning making machines. We want to know WHY.

On a good day, we might wonder if they are OK or if something bad happened. On a bad day, we may take it terribly seriously and personally. “What a jerk!” “Who do they think they are??” “Oh my god, I did something wrong but I don’t know what it is!” “Several people have been laid off lately to cut costs, maybe I’m next!” “How in the world am I going to explain getting fired to my spouse??” Sleepless nights and rehearsing imaginary conversations may ensue.

This example shows what I mean by exponential thinking. It’s when we get carried away with our imagination as we try to make sense of what is happening.

Rather than directly asking the person what is going on, we spin out inside our minds or we get others involved in colluding with us. Either way, we are going down the rabbit hole of exponential thinking which is just like shaking the snow globe and completely obscuring our clarity and felt sense of wellbeing.

When you feel yourself caught up in a runaway story in a situation like this, that’s your wake up call to put the snow globe down and let the confusion settle so that you can find your way clearly again.

One way to stop shaking the globe is by using this diagram. Inside the lines, place the FACT of your particular situation. Example: “Boss is curt”. Outside the lines place your STORY about the situation. Example: “Boss is a jerk.”

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Now you try it. Filling out your own diagram can help you wake up to your exponential thinking. Often times, waking up to yourself is all that’s needed to be able to release those stories. Other times, those stories really do sock in and you simply must wait for the storm to clear.

It can help knowing that every storm runs out of rain. Always. You can find your way.

If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore more deeply how to overcome overthinking, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. In person, Zoom, FaceTime, or Zoom. Contact Me

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Are You Hiding in Plain Sight?

I’ve had a life-long fear of being seen. I know I’m not the only one. Many people are hiding in plain sight with this fear. When I reflect, I can see that it comes down to a fear of not measuring up, being seen as imperfect or as a fraud, being inadequate, or worse yet, being seen as fundamentally flawed. While this has become less of an issue as I’ve worked through these things, it still rears its head. Can you relate?

We live in an overly individualistic society. In fact, individualism is highly applauded in many ways. The demands are extreme that we look and act just right, excel, are successful (in very particular ways), are culturally beautiful, that we are all things to all people, and that we go it alone. It’s too heavy!

The demands are impossible but we don’t dare let anyone see our struggles, we simply do our best to bear up under it all, hiding in plain sight, — until we can’t any longer. I think of Anthony Bourdain, Kate Spade, and many others. Social media has only proven to increase these demands and the craziness of it all.

Almost all of us feel the pressure to conform to some extent or another. But at what cost? What price do you pay when you hide your imperfections and pain day in and day out?

The price is paid in many forms: fatigue, anxiety, shame, difficulty speaking up, poor sleep, a compromised immune system, avoidance, loneliness despite how many people are around, compromised relationships, poor work performance, overworking to the point of exhaustion, over drinking, overly guarded, and much more.

So many people are hiding in plain sight, quietly dealing with the anxiety of it all.

What can we do about this?

When I’m working with a client dealing with these kinds of unrealistic demands, whether external or internal, I first point them in the direction of who they are at their essence, before the demands.

This desire we have to hide or not be seen is not a result of our true self, it’s a result of not being in touch with our true self. We want to protect our ego or our image of ourselves, but the true self doesn’t need protecting.

Each of us comes into this world with certain innate characteristics. You can see this in very young children. They are happy, curious, playful, creative, comfortable with themselves, responsive, open, resilient, and so on. They have an amazing capacity to feel all of their explosive emotions and then let those emotions move through them naturally and quickly. Of course, these characteristics can become quite hidden, even very early on, when trauma is involved but those qualities are still there.

These are the qualities that are innate to us as adults. Each of us has innate wisdom, resilience, intuition, insight, resourcefulness, love, and wellbeing but we may be quite out of touch with them.

The solution is to come home to yourself, before all of the beliefs, demands, and expectations that have been placed on you and that you now place on yourself.

You are not damaged, not at your core. Yes, your ego, reputation, or physical body may be damaged, but who you truly are can never be damaged. However, we get confused living in a culture that tells us otherwise. This is the first misunderstanding to clear up.

Secondly, it’s important to wake up to the beliefs, stories, and narratives that you are buying into — that we all buy into — that cloud your clarity about who you really are.

A story I bought into for many years that nearly destroyed me was that my heart is evil above all else. I believed I couldn’t trust myself and when I did inevitably fail, I used that as proof that the evil-heart story was true. I carried terrible shame for decades all because of this one story. Shedding that belief has freed me up in ways I never believed possible.

What are the stories, beliefs, and narratives that hinder you and keep you from knowing your true essence? It could be an expectation from a parent that you’ve internalized. It could be a cultural demand that tells you exactly what beauty and success must look like. Or a religious edict that you can’t seem to escape. It could be that you are buying into day-to-day stressful thoughts.

Who would you be without these stories?

You could think of it this way:

  1. Everyone has innate wellbeing, resourcefulness, wisdom, creativity, and insight. Sometimes you are more dialed into these qualities than other times.

  2. If you are too down or even too hyped up — hyper, angry, frustrated, agitated, fearful, etc. — these thoughts can become clustered and loud. Like a tornado in your head. The wisdom and insight are there but you can’t hear them. You may feel like hiding.

  3. Your default setting is wellbeing and when you are dialed into that, your thoughts don’t stop but you don’t engage them so much. You could imagine your thoughts on a conveyor belt - coming and going - slower and more peaceful. Now your innate wisdom, resourcefulness, and creativity have a chance to be heard and supports you in moving your life forward with more ease and flow. Now the fear of being seen subsides.

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When you quiet your insecure or anxious thinking and overactive imagination, even temporarily, you are able to access your inner wisdom, resourcefulness, and wellbeing. Now you are in touch with who you really are and who you really are has no need to hide or fear being seen.

When you find yourself wanting to hide and not be seen, this could be your wakeup call that you have lost sight of who you really are. It could be your wakeup call that you are buying into stressful stories, narratives, or beliefs that cloud your innate clarity.

When you realize you’ve lost sight of who you are and that you are caught up in stressful thoughts that make you want to hide, look for the stories, beliefs, and narratives behind those thoughts. That’s where you’ll find your suffering. When you recognize them for what they are, you can begin dropping them, allowing them to dissipate and you can return to the clarity of who you truly are. You are safe there. From that place, you can take action or not. You can be seen if that’s needed. You can live your life freely.

If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore a new perspective on being seen, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar for the next week for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. Contact Me

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Peace on Earth. Is it Even Possible?

I’ve recently discovered a new (to me) artist and I love his music. Fred Neil. He has a rich baritone voice, great lyrics, and mad guitar skills. He was a singer-song writer in the 60s and 70s. He influenced musicians like Joni Mitchell, Crosby, Stills, Karen Dalton, and more. He grew up in St. Petersburg, FL which is only 40 minutes from where I live now.

In addition to his music, he was most passionate about dolphins. He founded the Dolphin Research Project in 1970 which is an organization dedicated to stopping the capture, trafficking, and exploitation of dolphins worldwide. He gradually faded from the music scene as he became more and more involved with the dolphins (which makes me love him even more!).

He wrote a beautiful song entitled The Dolphins. This is my favorite verse:

Lord, I'm not the one to tell this old world how to get along
I only know that peace will come when all our hate is gone
I've been a-searchin' for the dolphins in the sea

I’ve thought a lot about these lyrics. Most of us have this idea that we know what’s best for this old world. But do we? Can we be certain? Are we certain enough to disenfranchise whole groups of people because they don’t agree with us? I see the divide in this country, and beyond, deepening every day (or so it seems to me). Am I enabling or even facilitating that divide?

When I look closely, I can see that the divide resides within me. I am divided.

I am divided.

I can feel the me that I find acceptable and I can find the me that is not acceptable. Of course, neither is actually Me, the true me. The me I’m talking about here is the ego me, the constructed me. I want to flaunt the acceptable me and I want to obliterate the unacceptable me.

I awoke this morning with negative thoughts about myself.

“What’s wrong with you that you….??” “Why can’t you…??” “You’ll never….!”

I woke up bullying myself!

I caught myself pretty quickly and brought it to a halt but I don’t always stop immediately. I would NEVER let someone speak to me the way I sometimes speak to myself. Ever! Yet, I can do it to myself for days on end when I don’t wake up to myself.

What does this have to do with this old world? I believe it has everything to do with it. If I’m divided within myself, how can I expect to not divide out there? Assuming there even is an out there. Fred says, “I’m not the one to tell this old world how to get along. I only know that peace will come when all our hate is gone.

Peace will come when all hate is gone. Peace will come when I’m no longer divided within. Peace will come when I fully accept Carla in all of her messy humanness. Only then can I fully accept you and those even more different from me than you are. Only then can I accept you even when you don’t accept me.

If we want peace on earth, we must first find peace within ourselves. I believe this. I really do believe this. It’s why I love the work that I do. I see my ultimate role as helping folks come home to themselves, come to acceptance of themselves. It’s what I’ve worked on personally for decades (I still do).

I spent decades depressed for two reasons that I can see at this point. One, I carried way too much shame and lack of acceptance for myself, largely due to family, religious, and cultural expectations. Two, I believed that peace was only available in the “afterlife”. I had no acceptance of THIS life. I didn’t have both feet planted firmly here, now. I was always waiting for something better and I was always waiting to be better. That is, I did not accept me now in this life here. No wonder I was depressed.

Only after having a close encounter with death (what I call my break-down break-through) over 20 years ago, did I wake up to my problem:

I did not accept myself and
I did not accept this life.

I suppose that’s as good a definition of hate as there is. Once I saw this, everything changed. Everything. On the other side of my close encounter with death, I awoke to the perfection of the here and now.

Initially, it was so bright and clear. It was so easy to be awake with all the clarity in the world. But over the weeks, months, and years, the cultural pull to dwell in the past and worry about the future (or longing for an imagined future) began to impinge upon me. I could feel the pull away from NOW. This culture is an expert NOW-avoider.

The work I do both personally and professionally is largely about waking up to ourselves. Catching ourselves with one foot in the past and one in the future, which keeps us dangerously off balance in the moment. It’s no wonder folks are terribly stressed and depressed. We’ve forgotten that we are built for the reality of this present moment — like the gazelles.

The gazelles on the African Savannah know this. They graze, completely relaxed and alert. Not hyper-alert but relaxed and alert, you might even say Mindful. The lion gives chase. Cortisol, adrenalin, and stress flood the Gazelle’s system. They run and leap across the Savannah. The lion breaks away, or even takes a gazelle, and the chase is over. Within 5 minutes — 5 minutes — the gazelles are grazing again, relaxed and alert.

They do not live in fear. They live in the moment. They know the lion can come at any time. They don’t worry about it. They don’t dwell on it. They don’t imagine it happening again. No, in the moment, they allow their system to work as it’s designed to work. Relaxed, alert, adrenaline rush when needed.

They accept life on its own terms. They accept themselves as they are. They are at peace, even though the lion dwells among them. Such beautiful acceptance.

Beautiful acceptance. That’s what I aim for. That’s what I guide my clients to. Because “I only know that peace will come when all our hate is gone.”

I can’t think of anything more radical than coming to peace with ourselves, true peace and acceptance. Only then can we hope to heal the divide.

Peace on earth is an inside job.

Only when we discover peace within (where it has always and only been) can we go out into the world and hope to help. Or so it seems to me.

If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore a new perspective on peace, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar this week for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. Contact Me

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It's the New Year but I'm Discouraged!

It may be that you awoke discouraged on the first day of this new year. After all, you had high hopes for 2019 and things didn’t go as you planned. You may have had devastating and unexpected losses. You may have had unexplained and persistent illness. You may have fought depression or anxiety. Maybe you didn’t live up to your expectations of yourself and you feel like a failure.  

People around you are excited about 2020 but you may not be feeling it. I want you to know that I understand. I had a less than stellar 2019. I had hopes and dreams that I didn’t realize. It occurs to me that a bit of grieving may be in order before diving into 2020 with gusto.

I hadn’t considered that grieving could be the balm that heals enough to open the way for a new year. We tend to dive in head first without taking stock, without acknowledging our disappointments, without grieving our losses. Perhaps doing so would make for a better start to the new year.

It may be that you want to hide your disappointment and discouragement. I admit that that’s my tendency. After all, I have an image to protect! Or so I sometimes believe. I suppose we come by this desire to hide our vulnerabilities innocently in this world of pristine social media images. The expectation to be perfect is compelling and outrageous. It hurts us.

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I found this post on Facebook and it resonates with me. We are so quick to leap into the new year, hoping for a new me, looking at all that needs fixing. In addition to grieving our losses and disappointments, perhaps it would behoove us to also celebrate our tenacity and resilience. After all, if you are reading this, you have a 100% successful survival rate. That’s nothing to sneeze at.

So, I encourage you (and me) to take time to acknowledge your disappointments, to grieve, and then to celebrate the “old you”. You are brilliant. You are star stuff. You are perfect just as you are.

From that place, you are ready to envision and plan for this new year. How do you want to show up in 2020? Who would you be without your unrealistic expectations for yourself? Who would you be without access to a single thought about what others think of you or expect of you? Who would you be with more compassion and acceptance of your humanness?

Yes, at your essence you are perfect and you are also gloriously imperfect. These two ideas are not mutually exclusive. What a relief it would be to acknowledge, accept, and embrace this truth.

And if you want to play a bigger game in 2020, by all means, have at it. But playing a bigger game says nothing about who you truly are at your essence — that tenacious, resilient, wise, bright you. Look there. Look to your essence rather than to the constructed, made-up, imperfect you that is trying to fit into this demanding culture. You will find your ground there and from that place you can decide how you want to show up in 2020.

May you find peace. May you find comfort. May you live with more ease and flow. I sincerely wish you and yours a happy new year.

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How to Make the Most of 2020

2019 is almost over. 2020 is soon to dawn. A new year, a new decade. It is a significant time. A significant transition.

There is nothing magical about the passing of time. Nothing magical about a new year and a new decade. Really, it’s just another day. Yet, there is an opportunity here for deep reflection.

It’s easy to get caught up in the day to day demands. It’s easy to continue in our same old patterns, or as Hobbs says, “staying the course” … whether or not it’s working for us.

The brain’s primary job is to keep us safe. It wants what is familiar. It wants to conserve energy. This may explain, in part, why we struggle to keep the resolutions many of us declare at the beginning of every new year.  

Deep reflection can engage the area of the brain that can help us override an overly cautious attachment to safety and familiarity. Just simply stating that can feel a tad threatening. Yet, developing a capacity for change and flexibility could be one of our greatest assets, especially in these chaotic times.

Deep reflection can get underneath the superficial “wants” such as losing 20 pounds so I’ll look more presentable to a demanding culture. That “want” will not sustain us. But if we can look deeper, we may find a compelling reason to lose those pounds, or we may come to a deep acceptance of our weight exactly as it is.

When we can uncover the deeper meaning behind the changes we want to make, we’ll have a better chance of overriding a very powerful brain that wants safety and familiarity at all cost.

This is the point of visioning our future, creating intentions, and setting up enough structure and accountability to support ourselves.

I intend to join the gym this year. This intention comes from a place of deep reflection. I want to get stronger and more flexible. I want to be healthier as I enter my 60th year. Yet, I could feel the resistance immediately. My powerful brain wants things to stay the same.

I reflected, I found the deeper meaning, but if I don’t set up some flexible structure and accountability, I won’t follow through. The moment a friend and I decided to meet at the gym on specific days, I felt immediate relief. I don’t have to do this alone. After all, humans are social creatures.

When is the last time you invested in YOU in a significant way? How are you going to support yourself in this new decade? And why does it matter? How will you satisfy your brain’s need for safety and familiarity AND move your life forward in the way that you most desire?

Your next decade deserves some deep reflection, intention, preparation, and a flexible plan. Without it, you’ll likely repeat the same old, same old. And that’s perfectly OK if it’s working for you.

As for me, I’m off to the gym. I wish you and yours a brilliant new year and new decade. Be well!

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How to Handle Holiday Stress

Emotions of all sorts get stirred up during the holidays. Joy, anticipation, gratitude, sorrow, longing, and irritability are just a few. Some folks draw energy from the season. Others are utterly exhausted and depressed.

I remember dreading the holidays. They were painful for me. Often, I’d suffer for a full month. I was living in memories of past holidays that didn’t go well and worried about what might go wrong in the upcoming holiday. On top of that, I often felt shame about all that I didn’t accomplish during the past year, then worry about the coming year and stress about how things might go awry. All of this was a recipe for a miserable holiday time.

Lao Tzu says, “If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”

It’s easy to get caught up in thoughts of past and future. We all do it. Innocently. The trick is to wake up to ourselves, with compassion.

I have a client who is a confident, highly successful corporate consultant and trainer. She confessed to me that she was feeling terribly anxious about visiting her mother for the holidays. She had gained some weight since she last saw her mom. She anticipated that her mom would open the door to her and immediately start in on her about her weight. After all, she’d done it numerous times in the past.

I asked my client how she reacted when she believed her mother would receive her in this way. She said that she became defended, on guard, ashamed, angry, and withholding. She would shut down.

I asked if she thought her mother would feel all of that defensiveness. She knew that her mom would feel it and would most likely react negatively to it. I then asked her how it would be to visit her mother without the belief that she would give her grief about her weight.

She said she would be more open. She’d feel lighter. She would be present and not preoccupied with her mother’s reaction to her weight. I saw her breathe a sigh of relief as she understood that how she showed up had nothing to do with her mother’s behavior.

We both recognized that no matter how she entered, her mom very well may be critical of her weight. But rather than living that moment again and again before the visit, she recognized that she only had to live it once at the time it happens, if it happens.

So, she opened herself. She dropped her defensiveness. She dropped the story about how her mom was going to react. She dropped her judgment about her weight gain. She arrived at her mother’s house for Thanksgiving with presence and love. Her mom opened the door and beamed. She embraced her daughter and told her how good she looked and how happy she was to see her.

My client was able to bring herself into the present moment and find peace. She was able to find her way forward from that place of presence. And while it may have been difficult if her mom had been critical instead of loving, which was a very real possibility, she would have had more access to her own resourcefulness and emotional reserves. She would’ve been more able to respond from a place of groundedness, love, and wisdom. It wouldn’t have shaken her to her core.

Listen, the holidays can be tough. You could be gentle with yourself. You could give yourself a break and have compassion for yourself. You could have compassion for those around you who may be struggling, too. It can be a tricky time.

As much as possible, keep bringing yourself back to this moment. Recognize when you are living in a memory of a difficult past. Recognize when you are stressing about something that is not yet happening and may not happen.

When you can catch yourself living in the past or the future, you are able to bring yourself back to this moment where you have access to your essential nature: love, wisdom, peace, wellbeing, resilience, and more. All this will support you no matter what you face.

My family and I send you warmest season’s greetings. May you be happy. May you be safe. May you be you be healthy. May you live life with ease.

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Resolutions and the New Year: What Works and What Doesn’t

I tend to cringe a little when I hear the word resolution. The idea of resolutions and habits can remind me of failure and unreasonable expectations. The idea of discipline can remind me of my rigid dad and my fundamentalist background. The idea of structure and systems sounds too confining. These are all stories I’ve made up and these stories do not serve.

But here we are again, that time of year when we begin thinking of resolutions. “Oh my god, I need to lose 15 pounds. I need to increase my business. I need to exercise more. I need to be better at socializing. I need to put stronger habits in place.” The list goes on.

I can feel myself collapse a little under the weight of it all. I don’t feel encouraged and excited. I can feel ashamed and judged. We believe success or failure with resolutions tells us something about ourselves, such as whether or not we are good enough. No wonder we find it difficult to live up to them.

It doesn’t have to be this way. There is a perspective that can be expanding rather than limiting and these questions can be useful as you reflect on the coming year.

  • Who would you be if you stopped buying into the stories or narratives about what you’re supposed to do or be?

  • How would you approach this new year if you understood that accomplishments or failures tell you absolutely nothing about who you are? Read that one again.

  • How would things look different if you knew that you are already whole and that life is a game to play not to conquer or endure?

Take your time with these questions. Reflecting on them can be life changing.

Once you’ve reflected on these questions for a bit, you are ready to look back at the past year and plan for the next year, knowing that accomplishments and failures tell you nothing about who you are (yes, I slipped that in again!).

Are there changes you want to make in the coming year? If so, you could look at the situation objectively, without shame and judgment, without unrealistic expectations, without the painful narrative, and, conversely, without so much hype that you burn out by February.  

Looking back, even briefly, can bring much-needed clarity.

  • What went well? Take time to celebrate!

  • What understanding, strategies, systems, practices worked?

  • What didn’t work? No judgment allowed. Stick with the facts.

Next, envision the year ahead.

  • What do you want to create in your life or business?

  • What would it look like a year from now if you do create it? Be specific.

  • What do you need to put in place to be able to create what you envision?

  • What are you no longer willing to tolerate that gets in your way of creating what you desire

  • What are the specific next steps needed (doable and even tiny)?

You can hold all this lightly. There is no need to be rigid and demanding but reflection can lead to more clarity. Flexible structure can lead to more expansiveness and freedom. And remembering that the game of life is to be played, not conquered or endured, can lead to more flow and enjoyment.

As you enter into this holiday season, take some time to reflect. You are enough. There is nothing that needs to change to make you better or more acceptable. You are already whole.

And if you want to up your skill in the game of life or create something new, then, by all means, have it. Reflect on where you are now. Envision what you want. Determine your next steps. Put enough structure in place to support you. Watch yourself soar.

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Perfectionism, Self-Doubt, and the Fear of Failure

My partner and I have a little 15’ skiff we call the Freida (named after my mama). She’s old but she runs like a champ and we love her. I’m mostly the captain of the Freida and my partner is the pro at launching and trailering her at the Dunedin Marina. It’s not easy backing a trailer. It requires overriding what the brain wants to do.

I decided that I need to learn to back the trailer. We went to a church parking lot where there is plenty of room to experiment. I’m highly coordinated so I assumed it was going to be fairly easy. I was wrong. It was crazy hard. I was surprised!

Not only that, I got irritated. Really irritated. With myself. I felt stupid and uncoordinated. Neither of which are true. Yet, in that moment, I bought into those feelings as if they were true. The result? I rushed, failed, and wanted to quit. I had barely given it a try!

Why are we so quick to judge ourselves? Why do we give ourselves such a hard time? What is this need to be perfect? I suppose we come to this innocently, steeped in a culture of immediate gratification, expectations, and the rigid separation between winners and losers.

My partner told me to breathe and slow down. After a few more frustrating moments, I did. I reset my expectations. There is nothing wrong me. It’s simply a matter of practice. So, I practiced again and again until I began to get the hang of it.

It may be easy to wake up to ourselves with something as insignificant as backing a trailer, but what about when it comes to mastering a new skill in your business, relationship, or some other significant change that is important to you? What can you do about perfectionism, fear of failure, or negative self-talk? How do you develop the grit to see it through?

My partner held the key.

Breathe. Slow down. Keep at it.

When we buy into perfectionism, self-doubt, and fear of failure, we cloud our clarity of action. You could imagine holding a snow globe and shaking it. The snow obscures the clarity of the scene within the globe. When we become agitated, it’s as if we keep shaking the snow globe and wonder why we can’t see the scene. This, of course, leads to more agitation.

When we take that breath and slow down, we give our clouded thinking and stressful emotions time to settle. Some may call this mindfulness.  

Mindfulness, as described by scientists, is the experience of paying close attention to the present in an open and accepting way. Daniel Siegal, a leading researcher and author in this area, says, “It’s our ability to pause before we react. It gives us the space of mind in which we can consider various options and then choose the most appropriate ones.”

Mindfulness is about noticing inner signals. When you are lost in thought or emotions, you don’t see as much or sense as much. But, when you focus your mind on the present moment, all your senses come alive.

Frustration (or any emotion) naturally occurs. You could think of your feelings as a bus that pulls up to the stop. You can hop on that bus or you can stay put and let the bus move on. You have no control over the bus coming and going but you don’t have to hop on it and even if you do, you can hop off at the next stop. Sometimes all it takes is one mindful breath.

I have a client who gets extremely nervous before entering an important business meeting. Through our work together, she has learned the simple practice of sitting at her desk and bringing her attention to her breath for 60-90 seconds. When she’s done, she exits the office and walks into her meeting grounded and ready for whatever unfolds.

This tiny mindfulness practice has changed her experience by bringing clarity which enables her to tackle whatever her day brings. She was shocked that such a simple practice could be so helpful.

We think it’s the big things that have to change. We believe that we have to lose the 20 pounds or learn to be a professional speaker or get the big raise that proves our worth before things will change but the truth is that it’s the little practices that make all the difference.

Take a breath. Slow down. Keep at it. 

Clarity is your superpower. It can only be found in the present moment. You see, as my client worried about how her colleagues would view her, she was projecting herself into the future imagining their reactions and judgments. No longer in the present moment, her anxiety rose and she went into the meetings defended and not fully present. She was only able to show up authentically and powerfully when she brought herself back to the present moment.

When we get caught up in an imagined future or in replaying a painful past, we can become confused, stressed, frustrated, or fearful. We lose our balance. Mindfulness is the remedy. Take a breath. Slow down. Return your focus to the present moment. That’s the only place you will find your clarity and it is always there, ready to offer up the answers you need.

If this blog post resonates with you or if you’d like to explore a new perspective on perfectionism, self-doubt, and fear of failure, I’m opening up two sessions on my calendar this week for the first two people who respond, at no charge to you. Contact Me

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