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This Present Moment

September 3, 2010

Two o’clock in the morning.  Up doing yoga in an attempt to open up my screaming lower back and hips.  What is it about being at Daddy’s that makes sleep so elusive?  Can the new bed really be this uncomfortable?  Is it how hot he keeps the house?  Is it that I am hypervigilant—listening out [...]

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Liberated from Drama

August 25, 2010

“To see your drama clearly is to be liberated from it.” Ken Keyes Jr. When I look back on the drama in my life, it looks different from when I was consumed by it.  I can see how I contributed to most of it, at least since I’ve been an adult.  As a child, I [...]

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Attachement + Control = Suffering

July 16, 2010

I could’ve kept sleeping this morning.  I’m so tired.  My body aches.  It was difficult going to sleep…again.  I don’t know how to ascend this weariness.  Sometimes I get frightened about being tired.  I get frightened because I have had issues of chronic pain for years, though I am much better.  Sleep is a fundamental [...]

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The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

June 9, 2010

The problem with steeling myself to the pain in the world, like the gulf oil spill or a difficult relationship, is that I then steel myself to the beauty in life.  I simply can’t steel myself in one area and not be affected in all other areas…not really.  Sure, I get to have boundaries, like [...]

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Pushed by Pain, Pulled by Impulse

May 31, 2010

I heard a talk by Michael Beckwith recently.  I was impressed.  He was asked if change requires pain, suffering, or chaos.  We certainly see repeated evidence that this is so. Dr. Beckwith had a wonderful answer.  He said that we are pushed by pain until we are pulled by impulse.  This resonates deeply with me. [...]

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Speak the Truth

May 26, 2010

I mentioned yesterday that something is bubbling in me.  I had a dream the other night that gave me a hint.  It felt important.  As I was moving through that state between sleeping and waking, I got a clear message:  Speak the truth with kindness, clarity, and authority. It was that clear. It stayed with [...]

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I am Not Alone

May 20, 2010

I received news day before yesterday that Daddy is dying of lung cancer.   While news like this is difficult for me, it’s important to remember that the world does not revolve around me.  In fact, I just read a statistic that, according to the Lung Cancer Alliance, an estimated 437 people die of lung cancer [...]

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Needless Suffering

May 5, 2010

“Ultimately, Happiness comes down to choosing between the discomfort of becoming aware of your mental afflictions and the discomfort of being ruled by them.” Yongey Mingyur Rinnphoche I hit a wall yesterday.  Exhausted from our move and the news about my father, I had a mild melt down early in the day.  I was quite [...]

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