sleep

Bringing Awareness to the Mind

February 8, 2011

I awoke in the night to an issue I am attempting to resolve.  Things appear to be going well toward a resolution but I find that I am suspect.  Does the person, whom I do not know, really desire a fair outcome?  My mind began to spin a bit from there.  I imagined my response [...]

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The Muse

February 1, 2011

I awake well before 5am, from interesting dreams to inspired focus.  The muse has arrived.  I struggle to pay attention, to remember what the muse is saying, but sleep beckons.  Muse outwits Sleep so I sit up, switch on the light, find my journal, pen, and glasses, and begin writing. First, I write an intention [...]

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This Present Moment

September 3, 2010

Two o’clock in the morning.  Up doing yoga in an attempt to open up my screaming lower back and hips.  What is it about being at Daddy’s that makes sleep so elusive?  Can the new bed really be this uncomfortable?  Is it how hot he keeps the house?  Is it that I am hypervigilant—listening out [...]

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Morning Agitation

August 23, 2010

I am agitated this morning.  I didn’t sleep well.  I awoke in the middle of the night worried about Daddy.  Is he getting the care that he needs?  I think he is too weak to be alone, but I can’t be there all day, everyday; neither can my sister.  He is just stubborn enough that [...]

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Attachement + Control = Suffering

July 16, 2010

I could’ve kept sleeping this morning.  I’m so tired.  My body aches.  It was difficult going to sleep…again.  I don’t know how to ascend this weariness.  Sometimes I get frightened about being tired.  I get frightened because I have had issues of chronic pain for years, though I am much better.  Sleep is a fundamental [...]

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Transitions

July 6, 2010

Didn’t sleep well.  Awoke at 3am.  Still awake at 5.  Drift back to sleep.  Alarm sounds at 6, waking me in frustration.  Get up to bring in the horses.  I don’t see them.  They are at the top of the pasture, so I hoof it up there.  Water buckets soaking in pine sol in the [...]

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Insane Brain

April 19, 2010

This is what my brain looked like at 2am last night.  We are less than 2 weeks away from our move, and believe me, my brain is already moving.  For 2 hours my brain paced like a nervous race horse ready to break loose for the track–thinking of every possible scenario, good and bad, that [...]

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