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This Present Moment

September 3, 2010

Two o’clock in the morning. Up doing yoga in an attempt to open up my screaming lower back and hips. What is it about being at Daddy’s that makes sleep so elusive? Can the new bed really be this uncomfortable? Is it how hot he keeps the house? Is it that I am hypervigilant—listening out [...]

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The Fullness of Forgiveness

September 2, 2010

“Do you have pain anywhere, Mr. Royal,” nurse Walter inquired. “I have a headache,” my dad replied. “What is the pain like?” “Feels like a fullness. Trying to hold too much.” I sat in the next room listening as Walter attached a new needle to Daddy’s port. I was waiting for him to finish so [...]

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Life Urge

July 28, 2010

Baby wrens were born in the garage. I watched them and sang to them many days. Finally, they fledged from their nest but two of them didn’t leave the garage. For several days, they awkwardly flapped around, too afraid or weak to venture out of their place of safety. I could hear the mother or [...]

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Shadow Blessings

June 21, 2010

I had a nice visit with daddy and family yesterday. It was good to be together. We couldn’t remember the last time we were all gathered on Father’s Day. It was a lovely treat. I came home tired and a tad sad, so I went outside where the light was warm and beautiful. I hoped [...]

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The Gift of Sharing Miracles

June 16, 2010

I visited with Daddy yesterday. He’s struggling with his lung cancer but is very brave in the midst of it. It is good to be with him. A pair of cliff swallows built a nest on his porch some weeks ago. We’ve been watching them ever since. Daddy has been very respectful of them, even [...]

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All This and More

May 28, 2010

I was in a funk yesterday. I couldn’t pull myself out of it. Then I went into the greenhouse to pot some plants and I discovered a bird’s nest. The babies are so very tiny! And the Carolina Wren mother worked right around me, barely bothered by my presence. I couldn’t help but smile–despite myself. [...]

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All Shall Be Well

May 19, 2010

I found out yesterday afternoon that my Dad has terminal lung cancer. The news kind of sucks the wind out of me. I feel like I just found my dad…now I’m going to lose him. I never thought I’d have a close relationship with him, but in the last year all that has changed. We [...]

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Practicing Gratitude

May 7, 2010

Often, gratitude helps me reframe my thoughts. It’s been a difficult week in many respects, but I keep coming back to a profound sense of gratitude. At times, it simply wells up in me. Other times I have to intentionally call it to mind. I call this practicing gratitude. Like any other exercise, it takes [...]

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Power of Thoughts

May 6, 2010

Yesterday, I drove to Augusta to take my dad to the doctor. He had some diagnostic tests done. Things don’t look so good for him but the jury is still out on that. On the way back home, I thought about the hour long stretch of interstate between my new home and Augusta. I’ve driven [...]

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More Letting Go

May 4, 2010

Last week I wrote about letting go of expectations. As I prepared to move back to Georgia, I attempted to think through my expectations and intentionally let go of them. My sister even expressed her concern about some expectations I might have about moving so close to my childhood home. I assured her that I [...]

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