I don’t feel well this morning. Haven’t for a few weeks now. Been fighting a wanna be sinus infection, although I seem to be keeping the upper hand with my netie pot. And my body hurts from over doing it around the farm while trying to ward off the sinus infection. This morning I was sitting in my chair feeling discouraged that I haven’t felt well in awhile. Immediately the words “Brain Surgery and Hummingbird” came to mind.
Last week I had a dream, and I am careful to pay attention to my dreams. It was a short snippet. In the dream I was given the message that brain surgery and hummingbird would save me. I’ve thought a lot about that dream since having it, but when I thought of it this morning I started to cry. I thought, “Well of course I don’t feel well! I’m in the middle of brain surgery!” Perhaps this sounds odd to you but not to me.
I feel like my brain is being reconfigured; a sort of spiritual/emotional/psychological brain surgery, if you will. Lately, I think this is happening primarily through my meditation practice, which has intensified lately, especially with the addition of brainwave entrainment technology. So when I remember that a reconfiguring of sorts is taking place then I begin to relax a bit with the discomfort I feel in my body. I can relax because I’ve asked for this reconfiguration.
And then I think of Hummingbird; a feisty, joyful, magical little creature! Hummingbird is the other part of the equation for me. Hummingbird gives me the courage to carry on with the surgery. Hummingbird teaches me how to be tenacious. Hummingbird teaches me how to find the joy in the process. And I do find joy! Everyday I can find joy. I am grateful to Hummingbird for her support during this time of reconfiguration.
