From the yearly archives:

2010

This Present Moment

September 3, 2010

Two o’clock in the morning.  Up doing yoga in an attempt to open up my screaming lower back and hips.  What is it about being at Daddy’s that makes sleep so elusive?  Can the new bed really be this uncomfortable?  Is it how hot he keeps the house?  Is it that I am hypervigilant—listening out [...]

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The Fullness of Forgiveness

September 2, 2010

“Do you have pain anywhere, Mr. Royal,” nurse Walter inquired. “I have a headache,” my dad replied. “What is the pain like?” “Feels like a fullness.  Trying to hold too much.” I sat in the next room listening as Walter attached a new needle to Daddy’s port.  I was waiting for him to finish so [...]

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Web of Life

September 1, 2010

I enjoyed going with Karen to visit her Uncle Elroy last night.  It was amazing to watch him pick all those tunes on his guitar.  It was funny that he expected me to keep up with him on mine.  I didn’t have a clue, but I tried my darnedest.  He was just happy to have [...]

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A Space for Transformation

August 31, 2010

I picked up the book, The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, awhile back.  I began to read it but simply couldn’t make my way through it.  While there were parts that resonated, I didn’t know how to let them in.  I knew it was an important book so I put it aside—for seven years.  [...]

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The Responsibility of Consciousness

August 30, 2010

I am having many encounters with lizards lately.  I remember that I loved playing with them as a child.  I was not always kind to them in my curiosity.  I vaguely recall placing one in alcohol to “put it to sleep”, then attempting to do surgery.  I genuinely thought it would wake up after the [...]

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Alive to What is About

August 27, 2010

“One does not need universities and libraries.  One need be alive to what is about.” Gary Synder I like working in the yard because, invariably, I find treasures.  Today, I was happily weeding—minding my own business, I might add—when this little green fellow began to tease me.  He kept flitting in and out of where [...]

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The State of Fear

August 26, 2010

“Let go of your attachment to being right, and suddenly your mind is more open.  You’re able to benefit from the unique viewpoints of others, without being crippled by your own judgment.” Ralph Marston I had a conversation with a friend today that disturbed me.  I found myself tensing up as we talked.  I felt [...]

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Liberated from Drama

August 25, 2010

“To see your drama clearly is to be liberated from it.” Ken Keyes Jr. When I look back on the drama in my life, it looks different from when I was consumed by it.  I can see how I contributed to most of it, at least since I’ve been an adult.  As a child, I [...]

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What a Difference a Day Makes

August 24, 2010

“Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it.  Always work with it, not against it.  Make it your friend and ally, not your enemy.  This will miraculously transform your whole life.” Eckhart Tolle I awoke yesterday morning in a state of agitation.  After I vented a bit and allowed myself [...]

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Morning Agitation

August 23, 2010

I am agitated this morning.  I didn’t sleep well.  I awoke in the middle of the night worried about Daddy.  Is he getting the care that he needs?  I think he is too weak to be alone, but I can’t be there all day, everyday; neither can my sister.  He is just stubborn enough that [...]

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